In the moment
I've been focusing on being in the moment. The power of now, as Tolle calls it. It has been interesting. I've had brief lapses of time where I've been able to be at peace for a few minutes, hours and even a couple of days. But this time I've been at peace for 3 weeks. It started when I wrote down my life's mission.
I am a teacher of God.
So now I begin to understand things like the 3rd step of Alcoholics Anonymous, "Turned our will and our life over to the care of God as we understood Him." As I am doing that during the next minute, things just seem to happen. I still have a wild Ego screaming at 100MPH. But it is not so loud. And it is not so important.
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Your feeling is not
Your feeling is not uncommon. I was unaware of the fear of self professing ones dreams until recently when I got rid of my financial adviser and took over managing my IRA. I have never really cared about money as long as I have enough to pay bills and buy art supplies. I wasn't happy about losing money to incompetence....but I discovered this ridiculous insane fear of having money. Just transferring money sent me into full blown panic attacks. It was crazy!!! I fear nothing!!!
Still it has nothing to do with money. It's the root fear of being unworthy. I fear not failure but success! I can be successful in things that I do not hold near and dear to my heart....but even then I put limits on myself.... the success of something that is important to me I have just never confronted until recently.It's the reason I choose not to be in the Holy Instant! FEAR OF SUCCESS! My fear and avoidance of that fear was so perfect that I was totally self-UNaware!! I won't get into the excuses I tell myself.....
You were terribly brave to profess your life's dreams and mission not only to your self but for reaffirming it by telling the world!!!
I'll now check out the link you suggested.
Three weeks? Three WHOLE
Three weeks? Three WHOLE weeks??? Surely you must be close to enlightenment!!!
And a life mission? That is just Icing on the cake! What a BOLD AND WONDERFUL statement to make!! I just started painting again after a long dry spell....Mission in life though? I have no clue.
My ego has been somewhat subdued. I can recognize the silliness of it all. I can observe it, CHOOSE GOD INSTEAD, and be done with it....until....it starts in on FAMILY MATTERS. I try everything! Observing my ego, praying, asking forgiveness.Even though I recognize what is happening, family issues just go around and around. I'm just hoping that every little effort is building up and making me stronger!!
Wishing you much Grace on your life's mission!!!
lizzy
LOL. Nowhere close to
LOL. Nowhere close to enlightenment. Closer? I had no idea what kind of effect stating my Mission would have on my life. Really, I was afraid of professing it to myself. What if it was shallow? What if it was something I couldn't do?
I used a workbook to come up with my mission. It can be downloaded for free here:
http://12stepworkbook.org/workshop/finding_your_hearts_desire
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